Bookish thoughts!!!

My name is Nicole. I'm 30 years old and live in germany. This is going to be my little space where I share all my thoughts on books that I have read. English books will get a english review. German books get an english and german review if the book is available in english.




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Where I Found You!!!

Where I found You - Heidi R. Kling

First things first: I received this book through NetGalley.


Where, oh where, do I start. I wasn't prepared for all the emotions that I would go through while reading this story. But I loved it. I truly loved the story and I loved that I got to feel all the feels.


Summary: After her mother's plane went missing over the Indian Ocean, seventeen-year-old Sienna Jones gave up everything she loved about living in California. No more surfing. No more swimming. No more ocean, period. Playing it safe, hiding from the world, is the best call.

Until her dad throws down the challenge of a lifetime: spend the summer with his humanitarian team in Indonesia, working with orphans who lost everything in a massive tsunami.

The day they arrive, Sienna meets a mysterious boy named Deni, whose dark, intense eyes make her heart race. Their stolen nights force her to open up and live in a way she thought she couldn't anymore. When she’s with Deni, she remembers the girl she used to be… and starts to feel like the woman he sees in her.

A woman he wants for his own.


But when Deni’s past comes looking for him, Sienna’s faced with losing another person she loves. She can’t do it. Not again.

Fortunately, this time, she has a plan.


I mean, the summary of the book pretty much tells you, that this won't be a cute read full of rainbows and unicorns. So I should have known. I didn't.


First of all, I loved the setting. This is the first time I ever read a story that is st around the work of a humanitarian team and the work they do for a country after a natural disaster hit. I loved the writing, it was real and didn't sugar coat anything, whilst also really bringing us (well, at least me) closer to a different culture. I loved that element of the book so much.


I loved the characters. Sienna, the main character. She's one of those characters, that I read a few lines about and that I love right away. Not saying, I was okay with all her decisions and okay with everything she was doing. Her backstory with her mother, the effects all of this still had on her, gave me all the feels right away. I pretty much loved everyone in this book, there wasn't one character that I just felt meh about whenever they showed up. I even really liked Vera, who maybe didn't seem as likeable from Sienna's point of view.
But let me tell you, the other character besides Sienna, that I loved the most, was Elli. Little Elli stole my heart in a matter of a few seconds. I loved her relationship with Sienna. I just loved that little girl so much. She deserves the world and all the happiness in it.


Of course there was this whole thing with Deni and Sienna and their relationship. I didn't care much for that and at the same time, I loved it. I love the non romantic part of their relationship, them talking to each other and getting to say things that they can't tell anyone else. Them, helping each other out, getting over things and moving on, even if it's tough as hell. I liked that part. I'm a bitter old lady at this point in my life, I don't get excited anymore about people getting together and being head over heels in love in the span of such a short period of time. I'm not saying it's not possible but you know, I don't feel it. I don't connect with that.


But I loved, LOVED, the story and would totally read it again, which is a feeling that I love. There is also going to be a second book coming out this year and I'm really excited for that.

The Demon in the Wood!!!

The Demon in the Wood - Leigh Bardugo

Right now I'm trying to read everything Grisha related. I just love the world.


Summary: Before he became the Darkling, he was just a lonely boy of extraordinary power. Get a look into the past that forged a brutal and brilliant leader.


I really loved this short story. In the first book, I was super interested in the Darkling. But well, things happened and in the rest of the trilogy he became that person I loved to hate. He wasn't my favorite. Still this was a really interesting glimpse into his life.


Ruin and Rising!!!

Ruin and Rising - Leigh Bardugo


I don't know how to write a review for it (I keep putting it off and doing everything else instead of writing my thoughts down.)


I'm just gonna start at the beginning and work my way to end of the story, the part I don't know how to feel about yet. No summary, cause spoilers. Also, this is the third and final book in the trilogy so, spoiler warning, maybe?! Probably. Yes!!! Also this review could possibly be all over the place, cause I can't seem to concentrate enough today, but I wanna get the review out, cause I finished this trilogy (my misson for this year is to finally finish all the series that I have started. Well, not all of them. Some of them.)


First, I had problems getting into the story cause it was the first book in the trilogy that I read in english and I felt like I had to get used to the writing all over again. But once I got into it, I enjoyed the writing much more than the previous books in german. I still need to wrap my head around this one, still. It feels weird.


I just love Alina and it was great being back in her world again. I just love her journey, from book one to this book. She grew so much and I just love her more and more.

It was also great seeing Genya again and she had such a bigger part this time around, no matter what she has done, I LOVE HER. She's my everything in this trilogy, not gonna lie. When she and the King came face to face in this book, I WAS LIVING FOR EVERY WORD SHE SLAMMED HIS WAY. (Also, I love her relationship with David, these two are just the cutest)

And Baghra. BAGHRA. I have too many feels about her, she's so bitter and sarcastic and everything I want to be in life. Kidding. Kinda.

Also living for the Tamar and Nadia relationship. Everything about this two, apart from each other and together. LOVE THEM.

And Zoya, she's the worst, but I truly TRULY loved her in this book.


So after all the love for all these women above.

Last but not least, I have to finally mention Nikolai. Swoon. I love him. I LOVE HIM, SO SO SO MUCH. (I really care for the other two dudes, Mal and the Darkling, at least the Darkling was a bit more interesting but Mal, NO!!!) Nikolai. When THE THING happened, I actually threw the book away from me, cause I was just too overwhelmed with everything that was happening. Especially so close after THE THING that happened with Baghra. At least he came out of this thing, scared but okay and charming as ever.


In the middle of all the things that were happening, there were also LOTS of twists and turns. None of which I saw coming, cause I'm mostly blind when it comes to things like this.


The end. THE END.
I'm not sure what to make of it. I'm really not sure. I didn't expect it to end like this. I didn't want it to end like it did. It made sense and I'm not saying it's bad, it just wasn't going in the direction I wanted it to go.

Reading progress update: I've read 339 out of 464 pages.

Ruin and Rising - Leigh Bardugo

So many things are happening. SO MANY!!!

Reading progress update: I've read 254 out of 464 pages.

Ruin and Rising - Leigh Bardugo

Switched from the ebook to the actual paperback.

Bought myself the complete english book box.

Eine Fackel im Dunkel der Nacht // A Torch Against The Night!!!

Elias & Laia - Eine Fackel im Dunkel der Nacht: Teil 2. - Sabaa Tahir, Barbara Imgrund, Felder Rushing, Gabrielle Pietermann

german and english review


Oh die Bücher könnten zu einer meiner Lieblingsserie werden. Ich bin so froh, dass ich sie schnell nach einander gehört hatte, so brauchte ich in diesem Band nicht wieder in die Welt reinzufinden, sondern war immer noch drin. Deswegen hat es mir auch sehr gut gefallen, dass es in dem Band gleich da weiter ging, wo der andere Band aufgehört hatte. YAY!!!!


Ich war von dem Buch gleich überzeugt als ich beim ersten Kapitel von Helena angekommen war und mitbekommen hatte, dass wir jetzt die Story auch aus ihrer Sicht lesen können. Ich mochte sie im ersten Teil schon, im zweiten Teil mochte ich sie noch mehr. Vor allem, dass wir so auch mehr über sie erfahren konnten, ihre Familie und auch ihre Sicht der Dinge, die gerade so vor sich gehen. Sie ist unheimlich klasse!!!


Viel will ich zur Story garnicht sagen, weil es der zweite Band ist.
Aber was ich sagen kann ist, dass der Band wieder genau so klasse war, wie der erste auch. Super spannend und voller Action. Es sind wirklich so so viele Dinge passiert, über manche Sachen könnte ich garnicht reden, selbst wenn ich es wollen würde, weil ich immer noch nicht drüber hinweg bin. Auch an Wendungen gab es so viele. Es war großartig.




Oh these books could become one of my favorite series. I'm glad I listened to them shortly after one another, so I never really got out of the world, just stayed in it and didn't have to find my way back. That's why I also loved that the book started right where the first book ended. YAY!!!!


The book got me, the moment I reached Helene's first chapter and realized that we get to read the story from her POV now, too. I loved her in the first book, loved her even more in the second one. I especially loved that we learned so much more about her, her family and really getting to read her thoughts on things that are going on. She's just amazing.


I don't wanna say much about the story itself, cause it's the second book and all that jazz.
But I wanna say, that I loved the second book just as much as the first one. The story still was really exciting, intense and just full of action. There were so many things happening, that even IF I wanted to talk about them, I couldn't, cause I'm still not over them. NO. Also the twists and turns, so many of them. SO AMAZING.

Reading progress update: I've read 80%.

Elias & Laia - Eine Fackel im Dunkel der Nacht: Teil 2. - Sabaa Tahir, Barbara Imgrund, Felder Rushing, Gabrielle Pietermann

I never liked him but still, WHOA!!!!

Reading progress update: I've read 36%.

Where I found You - Heidi R. Kling

Sienna and Elli. Sienna and the girls overall. I just have lots of feels about this.

Reading progress update: I've read 14%.

Ruin and Rising  - Leigh Bardugo

I think I complained on all my social media accounts, SO, why not do it on here, too. I hate myself for this LOL

I read the first two books in the series in german. I had the paperbacks. I had the most amazing time reading them. I wanted to get the last book in the series as a paperback, matching my other two, apparently they are not making this one as a paperback. They are also not making the hardcovers anymore. They are available on amazon and sites like this. FOR 245,98 EUROS. And that's the cheapest one. KILL ME. I'm not even gonna go there, I complained about these prices enough already. I mean, the ebook is around 12 bucks, but I'm not gonna pay that either. So I bought the english version, cause at least that wasn't in the double digits.


So now, about the actual story. Cause I read the books in german and it's been a while, I feel like I need a bit more time to get into the story. It's not about the book being in english, cause I don't have a hard time reading it. I just feel the writing is different and just the overall vibe. It's weird. I'm weird. I'm gonna make it work. Bye. LOL

My Year 2017

This feels so weird. It feels like just yesterday I sat down to write my wrap up for the year 2016. The older I get, the faster time seems to go. I never listened to my mom or grandma when they said those exact words to me. Now I know better.


Personally 2017 was not the greatest, when it comes to my mental health I feel like I didn't go anywhere, I didn't have any setbacks, so that's positive, but I wanted to be further along on my journey. Oh well, there is always next year, no need to put pressure on delicate things.



Books. I set my goal to 70 this year, I felt confident that I would reach that but also challenged myself a bit since it was a few books more than a year before. And I killed it. I even read 9 more books. I SMASHED IT!!!!!!!


So here is my Top 18:
(also honorabe mentions to all the books I read by Karin Slaughter, Tess Gerritsen, J.D. Robb, Jo Nesbø, Sebastian Fitzek, Rainer Löffler, and everything I read Harry Potter related.)


Nur drei Worte by Becky Albertalli
The Best We Could Do by Thi Bui
Shadow of a Girl  by Shannon Greenland
The Lying Planet by Carol Riggs
We Should All Be Feminists by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie
Coraline by Neil Gaiman
The Castaways by Jessika Fleck
The Sleeping Prince by Melinda Salisbury
Girl on the Train  by Paula Hawkins
Exodus of Magic by Simone Pond
Artificial Sweethearts // Approximately Yours by Julie Hammerle
The Perfectly Imperfect Match by Kendra C. Highley
Wilde Like Me by Louise Pentland
Ich, Eleanor Oliphant by Gail Honeyman
A Messy, Beautiful Life by Sara Jade Alan
alias Grace by Margaret Atwood
Der Himmel in deinen Worten by Brigid Kemmerer

My December 2017

The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn - Mark Twain, Crystal Chan Kakerlaken: Harry Holes zweiter Fall (Ein Harry-Hole-Krimi) - Jo Nesbø  Vertigo: Of Love & Letting Go  - Analog De Leon Der Himmel in deinen Worten - Brigid Kemmerer, Henriette Zeltner Sündiges Spiel - J.D. Robb Theatrics - Neil Gibson, Leonardo A. Gonzales Rotkehlchen - Jo Nesbø
The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn - 2 stars
Kakerlaken - 5 stars
Vertigo: Of Love & Letting Go - 3 stars
Der Himmel in deinen Worten - 5 stars
Sündiges Spiel - 5 stars
Theatrics - 4 stars
Rotkehlchen - 4 stars


Favorite book(s) of the month: Kakerlaken, Der Himmel in deinen Worten, Sündiges Spiel, Rotkehlchen


Books started this month but haven't finished yet: Elias & Laia - Eine Fackel im Dunkel der Nacht


I'm super happy with my december. I read lots of ebooks that I got from Netgalley. Just one book wasn't a review copy. I really wanna work on my pile of ARCs. I'm also just happy that I got back into reading and actually finishing books after last month was just a mess.

My Year in Books.


Rotkehlchen // The Redbreast!!!

Rotkehlchen - Jo Nesbø

German and english review
First things first: I received this book through NetGalley.


Das wird meine letzte Buchbewertung dieses Jahr. Ich bin so froh, dass ich das Buch heute fertig lesen konnte und damit, abgesehen von dem Hörbuch das ich gerade gehe, vollkommen frei und ohne angefangene Bücher ins neue Jahr starte. So mag ich das.


Inhalt: Der Osloer Kriminalbeamte Harry Hole wird auf einen Posten beim Staatsschutz versetzt. Eines Tages erhält seine neue Dienststelle Informationen über eine südafrikanische Spezialwaffe, die nach Norwegen importiert wurde. Harry Hole nimmt sich der Sache an und findet bald heraus, dass der Käufer ein alter Mann sein muss. Alle Spuren weisen in die Vergangenheit, auf eine Gruppe von Kollaborateuren, die während des Zweiten Weltkriegs an der Seite der Nationalsozialisten gekämpft haben. Offenbar haben diese Kräfte ein Attentat auf den norwegischen Thronfolger geplant. Es gibt viele potentielle Täter, alte und neue Nazis, und Harry Hole muss sich in einen tiefen und beängstigend brodelnden Sumpf begeben, um diesen Fall zu lösen.


Das ist jetzt das dritte Harry Hole Buch in einer ziemlich kurzen Zeit für mich. Ich liebe diese Reihe, Harry ist mir unheimlich ans Herz gewachsen obwohl er auch weiterhin eine absolute Katastrophe ist und ich ihn öfter gerne mal schütteln würde, doch anders würde ich ihn garnicht haben wollen.


Der Schreibstil in dem Buch hat mir extrem gut gefallen, mit den zwei verschiedenen Zeitleisten, einmal im Hier und Jetzt (1999/2000) und dann einmal in der Vergangenheit (ab 1944). Anfangs hat es mich ein bisschen verwirrt aber mit der Zeit hat sich das auch gegeben und es war einfach nur total spannend gemacht und hat super funktioniert.


Bis zum Ende hin hat das Buch wirklich die Spannung gehalten und hat durchweg Wendungen eingebracht, die die Geschichte wirklich bis zum Schluss interessant gemacht haben.



ernsthaft, ich halte es zwar vage aber SPOILER!!!!!





Wie in den beiden anderen Büchern, habe ich auch in diesem Buch einen weiblichen Charakter präsentiert bekommen, den ich gleich ins Herz geschlossen habe und der mir weggenommen wurde. Das ist der Grund warum ich dem Buch einen Stern abgezogen habe, weil es jetzt wirklich zum dritten Mal passiert ist und weil es mich echt wütend macht. Was mich auch gestört hat, ist dass der Fall nicht mal richtig aufgeklärt worden ist, dass einer der damit zu tun hat immer noch frei rumläuft und sogar eine Beförderung erhalten hat. Ich hoffe es wird im nächsten Teil dann aufgeklärt wird und der jenige seine Strafe bekommt.




My last book review for this year. I'm so happy that I had the time to finish this book today and that I get to start the new year with a clean slate, the only book I'm currently in the middle of is the audiobook I'm listening to, apart from that no unfinished books are left. That's how I like it.


Summary: A report of a rare and unusual gun - a type favoured by assassins - being smuggled into the country sparks Detective Harry Hole's interest. Then a former WW2 Nazi sympathiser is found with his throat cut. Next, Harry's former partner is murdered. Why had she been trying to reach Harry on the night she was killed?

As Harry's investigation unfolds, it becomes clear that the killer is hell-bent on serving his own justice. And while the link between the cases remains a mystery, one thing is certain: he must be stopped.


This is now the third Harry Hole book in a row that I have read in a short span of time. I love this series, Harry is really important to me at this point, even though he remains to be a total mess and I want to shake him more times than not, I really wouldn't want him to be any other way.


I really liked the writing in this book, with the two different timelines, one in the present (1999/2000) and one in the past (starting from 1944). I have to admit that it was a bit confusing in the beginning but with time, I got into it more and more and I think it made the book so much more interesting and it worked perfectly.


The book kept the suspense up until the very end, with all the twists and turns throughout the story, the whole thing was gripping until the end.


seriously, I keep it vague but SPOILERS!!!!!!!!




Just like in the books before, I get presented a female character that I love right away and that I get her taken away from me. That's the only reason I took one star away from the rating, cause this isn't the first time but the third time and it's really starting to piss me off. I also didn't like that the case didn't get fully solved, that there is still one of the people involved who is free and who even got a promotion. I really hope this will get solved in the next book and that this guy will get his punishment.

Just a quick update, where I wanna show you the books I got this christmas.
I got a few movies and some good music, too. But BOOKS!!!!


Theatrics - Neil Gibson, Leonardo A. Gonzales

First things first: I received this book through NetGalley.


This one was a brutal one. But I really enjoyed and liked the story a lot.

The characters were interesting. The artwork was stunning. I had a really good time reading this.


I didn't expect the end, tho. I didn't know there was going to be another part.

Reading progress update: I've read 60%.

Rotkehlchen - Jo Nesbø

I knew it would happen. I KNEW IT.
I still got my hope up that I COULD be wrong. I WAS NOT WRONG.
I HATE THIS!!!!!!!

Ich lese gerade

Mörderische Hingabe - 33.Fall für Lieutenant Eve Dallas by J.D. Robb
Bereits gelesen: 13/512pages
The Punisher Vol. 1: Black and White by Mitchell Thomas Gerads, Nathan Edmondson
Bereits gelesen: 31%
Die Fährte: Harry Holes vierter Fall by Jo Nesbø
Bereits gelesen: 31%