Bookish thoughts!!!

My name is Nicole. I'm 29 years old and live in germany. This is going to be my little space where I share all my thoughts on books that I have read. English books will get a english review. German books get an english and german review if the book is available in english.




Challenge ParticipantProfessional ReaderReviews Published2016 NetGalley Challenge50 Book Reviews80%






Reading progress update: I've read 7%.

Blutzeuge - Tess Gerritsen

I'm just so happy and so excited for this book. And forever grateful that I actually got an ARC through Netgalley. AAAAH!!!

A Messy, Beautiful Life!!!

A Messy, Beautiful Life - Sara Jade Alan

First things first: I received this book through NetGalley.

The book comes out october 2nd!!!


Look at me, reviewing an ARC before it's getting published. I think I'm starting to get my crap together. WHOOT!!! I wanna say right at the beginning, that I highly recommend this book to everyone, except if you want to stay away from cancer stories (something I totally understand).


Summary: Life is funny sometimes.

And not always the ha, ha kind. Like that one time where a hot guy tried to kiss me and I fell. Down. Hard. And then found out I had cancer.

I’m trying to be strong for my friends and my mom.

And I’m trying so hard to be “just friends” with that hot guy, even though he seems to want so much more. But I won’t do that to him. He’s been through this before with his family, and I’m not going to let him watch me die.

So, I tell myself: Smile Ellie. Be funny Ellie. Don’t cry Ellie, because once I start, I might not stop.


THIS BOOK. The cover is gorgeous, even though it took me way too long, to figure out there is a bone between all the flowers. Something that makes total sense. Also the titel is perfect for the book. PERFECT!!!


I kinda wanna dump all my feels for the book all at once in this review. But let's have some order. Maybe. Hopefully.


The writing is amazing. Seriously. I have some problems with books at the moment and taking forever to really get into them. But this one. The author had me right from the beginning. The writing was just so beautiful.


I also loved the characters right from the start.
Ellie is the perfect main character. Seriously. She is funny, she is loving, caring, she is freaking strong. That girl stole my heart.
And Jason, what a great guy. DANG. I really loved him the moment he showed up and could totally understand why Ellie was falling for him super fast. These two were the greatest, through all the mess, they were beautiful.
I also loved all the side characters. Craig, Ellie's stepbrother. He was amazing, seriously. In the beginning I wasn't sure cause Ellie descriped him as the most annoying person and then he showed up, and I just loved him. And he cared so much about her and ahhhh, he is great.
And Ellie's mom, I LOVED her. Moms are the greatest. I wasn't sure about Ellie's father in the beginning. I was super unimpressed by him not being there. Thankfully that turned around and he got much more involved.
I also loved Ellie's friends, Hana and Quinn. THEIR FRIENDSHIP.
The greatest thing about all these characters and their relationship was, that this group felt like a huge family that went through all the ups and downs in life together and that was just so damn beautiful.


This book has the perfect mixture of lighthearted, fun moments and moments that will shatter your heart. But it's beautiful and gives you all the feels. And ugh, I truly love this whole story, the characters, just everything. I will stop now before I slip even more into fangirl mode and no one will understand a word I'm saying. So bye. Read this book!!!

Reading progress update: I've read 18%.

Patsy Walker, A.K.A. Hellcat! Vol. 1: Hooked On A Feline (Patsy Walker, A.K.A. Hellcat! (2015-2017)) - Brittney Williams, Kate Leth

I only just now finished the first story but damn, I love this way too much already!!!

Daredevil, Vol. 1!!!

Daredevil, Vol. 1 - Paolo Rivera, Marcos Martin, Mark Waid

This is another one of my Amazon Prime Reading reads.


I liked this one a lot. I didn't LOVE it, but I really liked it. It was entertaining as hell and just fun to read. I only know the Netflix version of Daredevil, so I was really excited to read this version and I sure as heck wanna continue reading this.

Reading progress update: I've read 29%.

A Messy, Beautiful Life - Sara Jade Alan

Trying really hard not to judge her dad right now, for not being at the hospital and kinda not giving a crap about her. I'm trying. And failing. Jerk.

Reading progress update: I've read 30%.

Daredevil, Vol. 1 - Paolo Rivera, Marcos Martin, Mark Waid

Starting all the books. Doing all the reading!!!

Reading progress update: I've read 56%.

The Book of Whispers - Kimberley Starr

So glad I continued this, instead of dnf'ing it. IT'S SOOOO GOOD!!!

Reading progress update: I've read 10%.

A Messy, Beautiful Life - Sara Jade Alan

I started another book. Someone stop me.


Marlena: A Novel - Julie Buntin

German and english review
First things first: I received this book through NetGalley.


Das ist eins der Bücher, dass ich wirklich unglaublich toll finde und ab jetzt auch irgendwie zu meinen Favoriten gehört und das obwohl ich mit den Charakteren absolut nicht warm geworden bin.


Inhalt: Die fünfzehnjährige Cat ist neu in der Stadt, einsam und unglücklich - bis sie ihre Nachbarin kennenlernt, die wunderschöne und unberechenbare Marlena. Eine Freundschaft beginnt, voller Versprechungen, intensiv und gefährlich wie die Jugend selbst: erste Drinks, erste Zigaretten, erste Küsse. Marlena aber wird immer riskanter - und Cat wird ein Versprechen brechen, das sie jetzt, Jahrzehnte später, einholen wird.

Die atemberaubende Geschichte zweier Mädchen und einem Jahr im ländlichen Michigan, das die eine ihr Leben kosten wird und die andere für immer verändern.


Ich liebe diese Art von Geschichten. Sie sind meist frustrierend und richtig heftig. Wie sehr dein Leben beeinflusst wird, dadurch wo und wie du aufwächst, wer sich um dich kümmert oder eben nicht. Das Buch war unheimlich realistisch beschrieben und obwohl es herzzerreißend war, war es trotz allem wunderschön.


Ich muss ganz ehrlich gestehen, dass ich am Anfang des Buches ewig gebraucht hatte wirklich reinzufinden und dass ich mich mit den Charakteren wirklich schwer getan habe. Es wurde mit der Zeit um einiges besser und obwohl die Charaktere nicht zu meinem Lieblingscharakteren gehören, hat mich ihre Geschichte wirklich richtig sehr interessiert und hat mich auch mitfühlen lassen, wenn ihnen schlimme Dinge passiert sind und von schlimmen Dingen gab es in dem Buch ja wirklich genug.


Ich finde, es ist garnicht so wichtig ob man die Charaktere in dem Buch mag oder nicht, sondern geht es eher um die Geschichte die über sie erzählt wird, deswegen hat es mich garnicht so gestört ob ich sie nun mochte oder nicht.




This is one of the books, that I truly enjoyed and that I'm gonna count as one of my favorites, even though I never really felt the characters.


Summary: Everything about fifteen-year-old Cat’s new town in rural Michigan is lonely and off-kilter, until she meets her neighbor, the manic, beautiful, pill-popping Marlena. Cat, inexperienced and desperate for connection, is quickly lured into Marlena’s orbit by little more than an arched eyebrow and a shake of white-blond hair. As the two girls turn the untamed landscape of their desolate small town into a kind of playground, Cat catalogues a litany of firsts—first drink, first cigarette, first kiss—while Marlena’s habits harden and calcify. Within the year, Marlena is dead, drowned in six inches of icy water in the woods nearby. Now, decades later, when a ghost from that pivotal year surfaces unexpectedly, Cat must try to forgive herself and move on, even as the memory of Marlena keeps her tangled in the past.


I love this type of story. Most of the time it's really frustrating and really intense. It's insane how much your life is influenced by how and where you grow up, who takes care of you or well, doesn't. The book is so realistic and even though it's heartbreaking, it's so beautifully written.


To be completely honest, it took me a long time to get really into the book and I really had a hard time with the characters. It got better with time, and even though the characters will never be my favorites, their story was really interesting and made me feel really bad for them whenever something bad happens to them, and there is a lot of bad things happening.


I just really think, that it doesn't matter if you like the characters or not, for me, it was more about the story that was told about them, so I didn't really care that much if I loved them or not.


Reading progress update: I've read 30%.

The Book of Whispers - Kimberley Starr

Yess, I really think I can stick with this book the second time around. I'm really getting into it.

My August 2017

Ich, Eleanor Oliphant: Roman - Gail Honeyman, Alexandra Kranefeld Vampire Academy - Blutsschwestern: Jubiläumsausgabe mit 4 brandneuen Bonus-Storys (Vampire-Academy-Reihe) - Richelle Mead, Michaela Link I Wrote This For You - Iain S. Thomas, Jon Ellis Breaking the Chains - Ioana Visan The Night between Heaven and Hell (The Devil You Know Book 2) - Ioana Visan Harry Potter und der Orden des Phönix  - J.K. Rowling
Ich, Eleanor Oliphant - 5 stars
Vampire Academy - Blutsschwestern - 5 stars
I Wrote This For You - 5 stars
Breaking the Chains - 4 stars (review from the first time I read it)
The Night between Heaven and Hell - 4 stars
Harry Potter und der Orden des Phönix - 5 stars


Favorite book(s) of the month: everything, I can't decide


Books started this month but haven't finished yet: Marlena, The Book of Whispers


It wasn't my best month. It started pretty good but towards the middle of the month I had a lot of issues with my mental health. I'm also starting something next week, that I should have started two weeks ago but couldn't because anxiety and stuff like that, but monday is the day. It's some type of retraining with internships and stuff like that, so my social anxiety is off the charts. Reading isn't happening that much at the moment.

Reading progress update: I've read 15%.

The Book of Whispers - Kimberley Starr

So I'm actually going back to this book again, let's see how long it will last. If I can't get into it this time, I think this will be a dnf.

Der Orden des Phönix // The Order of the Phoenix!!!

Harry Potter und der Orden des Phönix  - J.K. Rowling

German and english review


Meine Gütige, was für ein Brocken!!! Aber ich hab es trotzdem in 30 Tagen geschafft und bin mehr als zufrieden mit mir. Ich dachte, ich schlepp es noch mit in den September aber ich habe heute vier Stunden lang nichts getan als das Buch zu Ende zu lesen.


Ich habe das Buch zum ersten Mal gelesen, ich hatte damals vor Jahren nach dem vierten Band aufgehört und es bis jetzt nicht geschafft, die Serie weiter zu lesen. Schande über mich, es tut mir Leid.


Ich muss sagen, obwohl es ja ein verdammt dickes Buch ist, wurde mir nie langweilig und es wurde mir auch nie zu viel. Die Geschichte an sich jedenfalls nicht, die fand ich wirklich unheimlich spannend und auch wirklich richtig gut gemacht. Ich fand das Politische so gut und vor allem auch so wichtig. Umbridge allerdings, die wurde mir unheimlich schnell viel zu viel. Ich muss sagen, dass ich mich mit ihren Szenen wirklich schwer getan habe, weil ich sie manchmal einfach nicht lesen wollte und es mir nicht antun wollte wie ungehobelt und feindselig, sie den ein oder anderen behandelt hat. Das war echt richtig unangenehm.


Allerdings fand ich Dumbledores Armee, die sich da aus der Not, gebildet hat, richtig klasse und auch wie bei dem üblichen Showdown in den Büchern, mehr dabei waren als nur das goldene Trio. Neville, Ginny und Luna. LUNA <3.
Genauso toll fand ich wie man mit Hilfe des Ordens, alte Gesichter wieder sehen konnte und neue Gesichter bekommen hat. Tonks <3


Das Buch war auf jeden Fall eine Achterbahn der Gefühle, es war alles dabei und hat mir an der ein oder anderen Stelle mein Herz gebrochen, wie nicht anders zu erwarten war. Ich bin so genervt von meinen jüngeren Ich, dass ich damals nicht die Serie weiter gelesen hatte.




Good god, what a chunk!!! But I still got through it in 30 days and I'm more than happy about it. I was so sure I would drag this book with me to september but I sat down today and did nothnig else for four hours straight to finish this damn book.


I read the book for the very first time, years ago when the books first came out, I stopped reading them after the fourth book and haven't had the chance yet to continue the series. Shame on me, I'M SORRY.


I have to say that even though this is such a huge book, I never got bored reading it, I never got overwhelmed with it. Or let's say, I never got overwhelmed with the story itself, cause it was really exciting and greatly written. I loved the political side of things and thought it was an really important part of the book. Umbridge on the other hand, got too much really fast. I have to say that I had a hard time getting through her scenes, sometimes I just didn't wanna read how freaking rude and hostile she was towards some of the characters. It just made me really uncomfortable.


But I loved that, out of necessity, they build Dumbledore's Army, such a great thing for them to do. And I loved how in the usual showdown, there were more people involved than just the golden trio. Neville, Ginny and Luna. LUNA <3
The same goes for the order, and how with that element of the story, we got to see old faces again and got new ones. TONKS <3


Overall the book was such a roller coaster ride through all the feels, it had everything and broke my hearts during some parts of the story, I didn't expect anything less.

The Night between Heaven and Hell!!!

The Night between Heaven and Hell (The Devil You Know Book 2) - Ioana Visan

It's been a year since I read the first short story in this series, so, because I couldn't sleep last night, I scrolled through my kindle app on my phone and decided to reread the first book and then finally read the second book.


Summary: Demon David Blake likes things just as they are: an easy job, centuries of drama-free living, and those who stationed him on Earth none the wiser. But his so-called perfect assignment is soon met with problems well above his paygrade.

Teaming up with an angel was never part of the plan, but when the threat of a plague unleashing becomes very real, David is more than willing to join forces with Andrew, if it will keep the impending apocalypse from becoming a reality and, more importantly, if it will allow him the opportunity to go back to doing what he does best: enjoying a comfortable life while steering the mortals wrong.


I just love this little series of short stories. It's super interesting and just something completely different. I also love the characters, even though we don't get that much time with them. The writing is really great and AH, I just love these stories.

I Wrote This For You: 2007 - 2017 !!!

I Wrote This For You - Iain S. Thomas, Jon Ellis

First things first: I received this book through NetGalley.


Sitting here for the last few minutes, trying to figure out how to best put into words how much I loved this book.


Summary: I need you to understand something. Ten years ago, I started writing this for you. I wrote it for you and only you. Since then, millions of other people have read it, but none have understood it the way you understand it. I set out to find you a long time ago and today, I'm so glad I finally have. Thank you for reading these words.

I Wrote This For You is a collaborative photography and prose project. (Almost) every day, the photographer sends the writer a new photograph from wherever he is in the world. The writer creates a poem or short piece of prose inspired by the photograph and focused on whoever might be reading the work, or "you." The writer and the photographer have never met.


This book, the collection of photographs and poems, is just too beautiful for words. So many of these poems tugged on every one of my heartstrings, made me feel all the things and made me really think. I love this. I seriously don't know how people can do that, make you feel all the things with just a few lines.


I highlightes so many of these poems that I wanna re-read whenever I need them. But also, overall, this is one of those books, that I wanna re-read a few times as a whole, cause it's so beautiful.

Reading progress update: I've read 30%.

I Wrote This For You - Iain S. Thomas, Jon Ellis

So far I seriously love everything about this!!!

Ich lese gerade

Blutzeuge by Tess Gerritsen
Bereits gelesen: 7%
Patsy Walker, A.K.A. Hellcat! Vol. 1: Hooked On A Feline (Patsy Walker, A.K.A. Hellcat! (2015-2017)) by Brittney Williams, Kate Leth
Bereits gelesen: 82%
Süßer Ruf des Todes (Reihenfolge der Eve Dallas-Krimis, Band 29) by J.D. Robb, Uta Hege
Bereits gelesen: 91/544pages
The Book of Whispers by Kimberley Starr
Bereits gelesen: 80%